so weird seeing my own thoughts/words on someone else's page.. dont worry i wont consider it as plagiarism... no need to quote ill just take it as a compliment lol sorry to burst your bubble but i think you need to get over the fact that you guys are "still there" ... lol


... no matter what happens i will not live my life intentionally causing pain and leaving scars to someone's mind and heart.

hahah so are my stocks up? perhaps...

two ways to raise your value: live freely and be happy.
i haven't really perfected both, but i know one day i will attain that equilibrium... the question is how?

it's been a year since i've posted a vague entry haha well this will be plain and simple just updating.
-im a pharmacist assistant
-i told my parents to stop giving me allowance
-still addicted to shopping.. just recently started online shopping its the best!
-6 years with my boyfriend
-have a nephew,, marco!!
-have a new bed! woohoo full size bed..
-got a universal studios allyear pass
-went to vegas in feb, san diego w my girls in april, palo alto in june and going to mammoth in august w the usuals
-new phone blackberry curve, same number
-the more i get older, the more i get annoyed easily
-im more emotional(?) affected by current events and people more than my lovelife
-i love my best friends.. the people i see once/twice a month & yet do not complain about it!
-i dont get impressed by people who try
-my relationship with people who once gave me a wrong impression will remain tainted
-thankful for opportunities.. all kinds (i.e opportunity to find out a person's true colors)
-im 1/4 anti social lol i love to mingle but sometimes i choose who to socialize with..
-another one.. its a big turn off when people get too comfortable when i do not want them to..
-i only give effort to those i find worthy and obviously nonchalant with others
-i usually initiate convos.. but if i always find myself the one doing so.. i stop...
-alot of shady people everywhere
-i still want to get out of this area and start anew...
-i still love to eat.. never will it change
-gave up on my artistic skills lol maybe it'll show up one day
-almost done with my BS health science degree spring 09..
-scared to apply at pharmacy schools
-i cut my own bangs which makes me look retarded lol
-i dont care who wins the election, it's not like they will keep their promises.
-when i say i miss people, i really mean it otherwise i wont say anything at all (i miss u jay!! lol)
-im a brat

despite of the changes i still consider myself as the same girl.. just a little better? by being bitchier.. haha

                                                                                         MOVING ON

after all the madness and insanity ... at the end of a chaotic path with unclear vision I KNOW there will be someone who wil unconsciously take me out of my confusion because he IS the only one who loves me despite of my flaws and shortcomings ... after all these years he still makes me crazy... 

just a thought
in the world of feelings, confusion rules but love reigns...


 

got this from katz old entry doing this cuz im bored and someone said its full of emotions hahah you dont have to read it you facker btw you're a loser!!!! =)

Think Fast, Answer Honestly
Answer with the first thing that pops into your head! DONT CHEAT!!!

1. My ex is still...
...still having sex with me haha jk i dont have an ex

2. I am listening to...
... anything - 112

3. Maybe I should...
...study now

4. I love...
...shopping my family real friends and of course my boyfriend

5. My bestfriend(s)...
...wedding

6. I don't understand...
...calculus

7. I lost my respect for....
...her cuz she's so annoyin

9. The meaning of my screen name is...
...simpleehmeeh = im just being me on aim and curazyangel cuz im curazy as my friends said lol and an angel gotta keep the balance ya know

10. Love is...
magical...

11. Somewhere, someone is...
...thinking about me (lol conceited but hey first thing that popped in MY head)

12. I will always...
...love you lol corny

13. Forever...
...is eternity

14. I never ever want to lose...
...my senses

15. My mobile phone is...
...tmobile sidekick and nokia haha

16. When I wake up in the morning...
...i check my fone for any messages

17. I get annoyed at...
...people who are users.. being a friend is one thing but a narcissist user is another

18. Parties are...
...for rockstars & meeh hahha.

19. My pet(s)..
...is going to be a cute dog and i will name him/her sam.

20. Kisses are.....
...sexy.. bite my lip and put me against the wall! rawr! hahahha

21. Today ...
...i went to my sch and now im going to read for my midterm on monday.

22. I really want...
...to hug my boyfriend or someone right now while listening to these slow jams! wanna spoon? hahahah

well i made a new lj (imcurazy.livejournal.com.. not gonna add friends sorry) mostly for pictures since i dont have myspace nor facebook haha im out of the scene and life is ultimately better =)
this will remain as my vent machine haha and yess jay! im vague cuz i don't like people knowing details nothing special anyway past is past btw i miss you!

what's up with me??
-my hair is long again
-im jobless but will find a pharmacy job soon
-csuf student health science major (changed it fr bio)
-i gained weight although it's not obvious haha
-got new numbers for both att and sidekick haha
-same bf actually i have 2? haha jk
-been watching WEEDs.. a showtime original series
-chill with different people
-perfecting on being a narcissist lol jk
-been to vegas twice this yr (april and may) going next week =)
-turned 23 june 1.. age is nothing but a number i still feel like im 21
-attending mtsac for summer school since it'll be cheaper
-i hate credit cards haha
-got my nails done. i love acrylics haha
-going to virginia soon
-this year ive been to jtown, griffith observatory, aquarium of the pacific, bubba gumps, the melting pot in irvine, stinking rose in beverly hills, las brisas in laguna beach ...
-im bored!

Its irritating how someone so unpleasant looking could think so highly of him/herself when everything abt him/her is an exact copy of each person and everything abt that person is a sham.... but who am I to judge?

Moving on... enjoyment of life doesn't only consist of almost weekly intoxication but its beyond that. I found a different kind of happiness, something I thought was unattainable it may not be full eternal gladness but it gives me a sense of peace...


Myspace....I'm not gonna give out anymore info than the basics... I'd rather remain a mystery before people starts invading my privacy... haha

I am barely picking myself up from all the drops I've gone through in my life.  I realized yesterday that may be the reason why I do not learn as fast as everyone else, is because I do not really know how to let go.  I tend to hold on to everything, believe me I know it won't do me any good but I still held on... why? I don't know it's the past.  I guess I am extremely traumatized, scared that my heart will be drenched in tears again, torn apart but then if we do not go through any pain... then we won't learn... these ramblings... rants & raves.... but its never too late for anything...

it is so hard to reverse things when you started believing in it.  so far for the past 22 years of my life this has been the toughest year but yes so cliche we live and we learn.  and if you don't learn from your mistake then simply as it is you are just an idiot wanting and craving for drama. mistakes happen for a reason and it is supposed to be corrected but some they're just "living life" i find it pathetic that people seize the day by consciously hurting someone.  take chances? yea i suppose but you should know the limit or there will be endless consequences to be faced.

moving on is not as easy as it seems especially at times when you are lost and confused... the reality doesnt coincide with your thoughts.  Could all these be just tests? paranoia? or so i hope.

we love........at times we get hurt but we'll always manage to rise and face tomorrow like we've never been hurt.... appreciate everyone that TRULY knows you & LOVEs you...

|[ noone can love u better than i do! vise versa anyone who tries to get in will just have to wait if things don't go as planned.....]|

wow it's been awhile since the last time I updated.... SoOoo many things happened and I can't really recall all of them right now besides that for that 2 months I had a fam bam escapade to san diego and I went to Sin City (las vegas!!!!) before I got serious with school.

school is arite... what more can i say? I WANNA BE DONE SOON but since i slacked off.. I am now facing the consequences

love life is arite as well... still the same boy

family is awesome theyre very generous

and my friends??? i love em sooooo theyre very patient with me =)

i have been a beach bum + fisherman LOL ive been fishing with the homies except that I havent caught one but someone caught a fish with my fishing rod haha food trippings and definitely shopping.  I havent been working alot and i love every second of not working! Been spending time with different people but most importantly by myself! i love my alone time since i get to contemplate about life... because i can not stress enough on how much bullshit jeremy has brought into my life! every psychotic (by a grotesque creature with inane personality)thing thats been happening in my life was caused by his imbecile acts in the past! I guess dealing with me is his karma LOL one day probably i'll just laugh at it but for now there's no way i could forget and there's no way to alleviate the lingering left over pains and thoughts...  i've moved on... 

speaking of which im going to a new school and applying for a new job! i can not wait... we'll see where it will lead me! hopefully to a better place and if jeremy is part of it then so be it but if not i still and will love him! all i can say is he better straighten out his acts cuz this gurl is gonna be busy soon i might find me a doctor jus keeding!!

my weekends consist of nothing but sentimental moments... haha i wish it has been chill.. i guess i am really starting to grow up! before i yearn.. take note yearn to go out and party now i jus yearn to spend quality time with my friends or just with my special man... all i have been doing is bonding and getting to know more people.. the people ive known for awhile now but never really talk to them... i meet a lot of people... my social life was up there that every weekend i would meet people but not all made an impact in my life i could count who really became what you would consider a friend...

many has attempted to bring more noise in my chaotic lovelife! sometimes i let them get to me but most of the time i say "shhhooooo fly don't bother me" hahahah on the reals my mind has been constantly at work.  thinkin about the past.. the why's! what if... why not...contemplatng about the future... like should i keep it goin on or just leave, the best solution for everything hahah but sadly and realistically we can not always run away from our problems because one way or another it will follow us and haunt us

thank god for my family & FRIENDS they are the sweet harmonous side of my life... my parents could be blah but they are getting immuned to my bitchiness ahahha as my dad said "she has her own world" LoL im not bitchy sometimes they jus bug me when im on the peak of my "attacks" it really sucks... So if YOU are reading my blogs i really wish YOU learned from "having fun" as much as I wanna kick your ass i will never do ... cuz unlike you i have class

shopping is my therapy, my friends are my remedy. my big problem is jeremy... hahahha jus kiddin about the last part i just wanna rhyme 

trust & have faith

quick recap

the day OF my birthday
-church
-shopped
-ate sushi
-DISNEYLAND

but i ddnt celebrate or partied with my sexy friends not UNTIL saturday night at Vanguard in Hollywood. Although it was frustrating at first cuz of guest list issues it turned out well. the place is nice! gotta admit the rest is history cuz i forgot what happened

so much has happened for the past year and thank god im still alive because i went through so much but i know there will be worse things that could or will happen! whatever it is i think im sorta prepped for it

for pictures jus visit my myspace or friendster
http://www.myspace.com/ricaromero

i love my special man!!!!

my mind has been working non-stop i wonder when it's all going to end! cuz im exhausted i can no longer take this anymore! i know what the best solution is but im not taking any initiative because of these things called regrets & hope or the infamous "what ifs..."

to make it even worse i thought my job was cool but its not even! so many flaws mann! playing favorites affects the whole workforce well inmy case cuz, the boss is blaming me for something SHE can fix geebuz watever im only staying there till end of summer! going to look for a pharmacy job or similar job but more pay where i can get paid for gas, mileage and insurance! gemie and jer are going to quit too so good luck to her hopefully she'll learn her lesson! stingy ass!

im not really having a good day... perfect song bad day by daniel powter!

peace!

my parents are gone! they are finally relaxing for 6 days! My dad's company sent him to Caymans Island (Caribbean) all expenses paid... for the President's Award haha funny funny! for a guy who has 3 day weekends he got it! weird huh but gotta admit my parents work hard my mom works OT alot and my dad even if he has 3 day weekends all the time he stays up till 2am cause of paper work oh well and what do i do? be a brat haha jk... well since i got a credit card i paid for my mom's sunglasses heehee she wanted it and mother's day is coming so i bought my mama chanel sunglasses(more like paid for some of it lol) and of course i bought myself a pair too... gotta treat myself right! and yea we bought my dad a present too hopefully he'll be surprised...

so how does it feel to be home alone for a long time? the house the cars and hee hee and bank accounts of my parents? its a different experience!!!!!!!!!! it's freakishly awesome!!!!! don't get me wrong im not gonna whore out my parents bank account hahah i'm only goin to use it for food that's what they said which is true! but it's sooo fun... no naggers no one being upset at me... but i kinda miss em already oh well i'll just enjoy =) besides wherever theyre going to be at... it's better than being here! haha

my hunny's right here... i cooked shrimp scampi for him and i baked it's better than sex cake hee hee i cleaned and did the laundry and all of those to get it over with so i can just go out whenever i want! to top it off i only work 3 days this week... cool huh? it's about that damn time i get a freakin break from world's cruelty... well karma's on its way... i hope!

so far life is ok.. but still dealing w some issues but what can i do that's part of learning...we have been talking alotlot lot and calm convos too... ahhaha seriously thought i dunt think ill be fully at peace until i get to spit on someone's face... hahah my birthday is comin up i want a maltese but i told jer i don't wnt anything material ... he actually knows wat i want =) but im not expectin for anythin! cuz u know disappointments... well that's about it... im bored and exhausted

peace

then its our 3rd yr and haha *long pause as i count* 10 months well technically 3 yrs and 10 months har har cant really explain why technically 0429

 i'm just in the mood to update this thing 

i can not believe on how much i have learned about myself and what i need to adjust in my life to keep my satisfaction/contenment going on! in a matter of 3 months, although i have learned I haven't applied everything that I have absorbed it takes time!  Because sometimes when you think you are completely over something but then a little touch of that subject we go back to ground zero.  All because some things are just extra sensitive i suppose I am pretty sure this is only one of the many heart aches I will go through in my life and with that  are lessons I will be remembering in my mind and  carrying in my heart.   
shopping has been my best friend because it accompanies me everytime i dnt feel good especially about myself! but then overdoin it brings consequences ha ha bills for my parents =(  

i am not all the way happy but i can say that i am actually contented with what i have.. happiness will follow later on =) i know i can feel it

this holy week was indeed different for me, compared to the previous years. First, it is sad cuz i wasnt that devoted unlike before BUT ironic as it seems i went to church more. Negative happenings really affect you and your whole being *sigh* life's lessons! another weird thing is I worked last friday! yea Good FRiday but i prayed for the rest of the night... this week was tough!!! it's just weird as cherie said it's the damn weather! yea blame it on the rain! it progressed towards the weekend!

since its holy week my parents specifically said NO CLUBBING!! so i jus had dinner with my friends(ivy and cousins) at bj's and after that other set of friends(shaun and hoey!) at banana bay! BOTH bunches were freakingly AWESOME! yess i spent the day without my hunny... HAHHAHA lets wait until sum1 uses this information against me! hahah arite ill get over myself! but before all of those happened hunny made me go to best buy to exchange my camera once again WOOT WOO!!!! i got a sexy one!!!

so today easter sunday hMmM...woke up early... solemnly prayed at san juan capistrano... *sigh* the vibe that that cathedral gives! oOOh sooo holy! i love goin there! afterwards met up w the family *bro in law and his fam bam* ate at King's Seafood restaurant YUMMY!!! and then knocked out in my daddys car and then off to see jeremy =) smiles everywhere thas all imma say =) oh yea we had sushi for dinner hee hee

ok... enough with the update
and start with life? hahah NAH what's new... it's the same thing we live and we learn. disregard negativities from people with wrong intentions! uhm KARMA exists and lately my thing is learn how to trust fully!!! cuz people do actually feel bad after hurting someone except for some people their personality is as ugly as their faces!

more update when im in the writing mode haha

i miss my gfs!!


my essentials!

i cant describe how im feeling... LoL this is the best way....

im in deep danger ugh... haha

every good there's a bad.. we jus surpassed the stormy year.. and starting the good again... thank god!!!!!!!!!!!!